MIA 10.11.16

Hello All....

It's me Courtney :)

I am quite disappointed in myself for not writing a post in what a year....? :(

ANYWAYS onto this update. I will just start from what I can remember haha

December 2015:

We had a wonderful Christmas, all of the family together, what more could you ask for? That month I got all I ever wanted, a healthy life. However this Christmas was the beginning to what was ahead. My grandma and papa got my brother and I a large gift that year. (I will not speak of what is was) As we opened our presents (which Papa always liked to make it a game to open gifts) we stood there in shock as what we were given. Me being my jokingly self said dang y'all (papa & gma) this is a big gift, are y'all planning on dying or something? Papa replies with his smirk/laugh and replied with well you never know do you? We played it off as we always do and continue to live life. Trevor and I are still confused through many days ahead lol.

January 2016:

Overall it was a pretty good month, I had a great job, health is amazing, and life was just LIFE.

February:

It was a good yet hectic month. I turned the big 27, and still was in love with what my life had been lately.

March:

This was the start of a VERY chaotic next few months. My Papa (Joe) started becoming sick in ways that he just didn't feel that good. We brushed it off and blamed it on his COPD as the reason he couldn't breathe that well. Gma then called to tell us papa was in the hospital because his blood pressure was up and down all weekend. I am not allowed to go to hospitals as it's very risky germ wise, but no one was stopping me from seeing Papa. I visited him everyday and he acted normal with him joking to the nurse asking her for a match, she said a match for what?? He said I want to smoke a cigarette, she looked at him like he was crazy and he couldn't hold in his laughter. He joked with every nurse he had, just like I do. After a couple more days of his BP going up and down so much they decided to do an ablation on his heart. They did and it worked. He went home. :) We had to spend Easter in the hospital but that was fine by me. We also celebrated Paisley's birthday (my dog) with endless cuddles and her acting in the crazy way that she does. 

April:

For Christmas in December I asked for Carrie Underwood tickets as that was ALL I wanted. lucky me my mom got me tickets to see her in Louisiana. Alison, my mom and I, headed to Louisiana and man what a concert. It was amazing in every way and form! I was complete. When we got home, I had to go show gam & papa all the pictures and videos I took from the trip. Grandma loved it and Papa said he didn't know what all she said but he sure was happy that I got to go..... he said it sure does make Papa happy to see his favorite granddaughter having fun. 

                                                    

May:

I will have to admit that this was one of the worst months I had since my transplant in 2012. Our last weenie dog Duece passed away and after all of those sad days. Papa STILL didn't feel good so he went to the ER at the end of April, they transported him to Arlington and he got worse very fast, because of the ablation he had at Baylor Irving, it caused him to suffer from MANY strokes. He lost movement in his right arm and leg. On May 5th, grandma's birthday was spent in the hospital because of Papa not feeling well but on that day, He had one of the best days he had in a long time. He was laughing, carrying on, joking, causing trouble and overall making us laugh all day. After that day we had decided as a family to take Papa home to live his last days in this world.     

On May 7th, he was not doing well at all. He kept having endless strokes, covering his entire brain. It was then that we realized he wasn't coming home. After praying endlessly for him to just be at peace, he finally was, they moved him to the Palliative care and he stopped talking. HOWEVER he would only speak to me and Trevor. :) Yeah we are THAT special. lol

That day I said Papa, he responded with huh? (typical answer from him) I said I love you, and with every ounce of strength he responded with love you too. Many people tried to get him to talk but his stubbornness he wouldn't haha only for me :)

The following day May 8th, around 2am, he left this world to begin his forever home in heaven. Of course he did all of this on Mother's Day. Typical White family fashion. But that's okay.

We had a ton of family and friends come visit. Most of all going to his viewing for Joe White being the "quiet" man that he is had over 125 people show up to honor him. If that doesn't show you how much of an impact he made in this world I don't know what will. His service was beautiful as it should be.
 
He was an amazing husband, brother, father, uncle, and most of all Papa. His impact still blows me away.
Little did we know that Papa was going out with a bang, literally. He left us with lets see, drama, a move, cleaning out his "garage" and Lord knows what else.

On May 8th, I took one of my grandma's anniversary cards that he had given to her. I went and got his last words tattooed on my wrist "love you" it is HIS handwriting, the end is a cloud with a semi colon as this is just a "pause" in life and we will eventually pick up where we left off. 

June:
We survived this month as it was a tough one, but we made it. We finally convinced gma to get her eye checked out because it was not looking good at all. So she did, she had surgery to remove her bump under her eye. They told her the "lump" was cancer but not active so he wanted her to do some radiation treatment for precaution. Ha yeah that didn't happen. Long story short she is 81 years old and you are never promised tomorrow so why should she put up with all that crap for a "just in case" situation. After Papa went home she told everyone she is going to TRAVEL.  :)
Her sense of independence was really tested the first month. BUT she wanted to travel so we travelled all the way to Fort Worth Stockyards. We had lunch, walked around and had such a great time even if she only could see through one eye. :)

The memories we made that month were incredible.

I took off some days from work as I felt I should. June 7th I ended up in the hospital (I forget why) and I had to get a central line placed as I don't have anymore viable veins in my arms. The central line hurt like well lets just say it hurt BAD. As I woke from my surgery I got my phone to text my friends and family. I had a two paragraph text from my BOSS firing me. They said I was taking my health more serious than my job. hahaha damn right I am. I won't get into that it makes me so mad but I clearly didn't need that negativity in my life.

July: 
It was a hard month because I was so upset over my job. I LOVED that job.
This month we celebrated Onyx's birthday. I don't really remember much from this month lol
I had my transplant appointment which went fabulous along with my outfit!!! :)
                                   

August: No idea what happened haha

September: This month I celebrated my BEST FRIEND/SISTER birthday, she finally caught up with me in age. :) I love you Kristin Brook!
                                          

On Sept. 8th, I got this little beauty. 2017 Subaru WRX  


October: I decided to start up my quilted bag making business as I have been slacking because of all the stress and what have you. After many hours I finally got the website up and going so check it out. :) Splash of Designs it's pretty awesome if I do say so myself. :)

This was also the month that we cleaned out the entire house and property as we know Papa was a "collector" of good stuff. Bless his heart he helped many families survive including us. Scrapper Joe was THE man known around Irving. :) This was his bicycles he had, he gave so many little kids a bike if they didn't have one.
     

We had a garage sale and oh my lordy there were MANY items. We got rid of it all, but I know we did give some stuff away and I think he might haunt us for doing that. haha oh and Papa I only gave away my stuff, the other items take up with grandma, dad, and aunt sheila. :)

October 8th, 2016. 5 months later with endless hours of working so hard the past year we celebrated papa in a good way. Aunt Sheila bought a fire pit, we lit it and just thought about everything that's happened in life. It was so peaceful.

 
       

After the garage sale literally ONE day after it all on October 9th we had brunch with some of my favorite people to celebrate my FOUR year transplant anniversary. It was so great to see almost everyone, it makes me feel so incredibly loved, by everyone.

            



This sums up my life this year so far.....

Thank you to everyone for always being there for me anytime I need you.

Thank you LORD for giving me one of the best angels that I don't even know who gave her life to save mine.

I don't have enough words to say how I feel about everyone. You will never know.

God Bless you all. Your in my life for a reason, my friends are not friends they are FAMILY and always will be.

xoxo,
Courtney 

3 years and counting....

October 25th, 2012 was the first day of the rest of my 'new' life. When the doctors told me I was able to go home most people would be so excited, however when you go from many years of not being able to breathe, you have your concerns. Will I be okay? Are you SURE I can take a deep breath? Mostly thinking I don't want to go home and leave the comfort of all the doctors, nurses, and machines. I still had some chest tubes in so that was scary too. However eventually you have to just jump! Tell yourself I'm fine, I'll be okay, I can do it....
They sent me home, it was the most nerve racking time for me and I know my family. It was so exciting yet so scary. So today marks the first official day three years ago that I got to wake up at home, no oxygen, no machines, no nurses, nothing. Of course I had my mom and brother who took care of me and never left my side but still that fear was there. 

It still is so crazy to me the whole ordeal of transplant. When I go back and think that at one time I was completely anti transplant how could I ever think that? Today I woke up again. BLESSED again. Absolutely thanking God for everything I've been given. This miracle of life I have gained. Three years & 14 days ago I was basically dying. Harsh yes, but it's a reality. We all die, some earlier than others. I couldn't even breathe to lift my hand up. It's so hard to even imagine it. You can't eat because it's to exhausting, you can't shower because you have no air to stand up or exert yourself, you have ZERO strength. You are helpless and can only count on others to help you, it's the most mentally frustrating thing one can go through, knowing you can do it but physically it's impossible. That's when you start building trust & faith in those around you. It was the hardest thing to go through but then again the most rewarding thing in the end. 

I woke up today, I did three loads of laundry, I fixed myself dinner, I showered, and cheered on the Cowboys (who lost but that's not the point). I couldn't do that three years ago. I don't take those little things for granted anymore, yes I am lazy sometimes as everyone is and I don't want to do anything but when I see people complaining about little things in life I just think man life could be so much worse. People who take things for granted just haven't learned how fragile life is and that's okay, their time will come. I am by no means wishing ANY bad on them. 

I have a job now, yes a REAL job. I work 5 days a week, and I'm on my feet 7+ hours a day. It totals to about 5 miles a day. That is crazy, I get so tired to the point of exhaustion. I get tired more easily than others but I try my hardest to push through. Most week days I come home from work about 5-6pm and go lay down in bed. It's by far the most exhausting thing I have ever done, some days I want to quit, give up, say no more but then I think I need to be grateful for the fact that I CAN do this now. Everything I do is because of my donor, SHE is the reason I wake up able to breathe, go to work, shower, eat, and just LIVE. When people criticize the little things about me then go for it. I don't care. I've been through far more than they have and I'm proud of it. 

The point of this post was to let everyone know how far I've come in three years. I had my yearly transplant appointment and did many tests (like always) gave about 13 vials of blood, and everything came back awesome. Yes I'm still fighting this whole diabetes situation but it'll be fine, just one more speed bump in my road that I will get over. It takes time but I didn't even have time before. :) I checked out great, my doctor forced me to give him a HUGE hug, which he hugged me twice, told me how proud of me he is and I'm still their miracle. Which I am totally fine with that. With that being said......

I'm proud of myself. 

I am living. 

I am grateful. 

I am loved. 

I am blessed. 

Most of all I am BREATHING. 

Please if you aren't already sign up to be a donor, there are SO many people who are waiting for transplant and not just lungs. When you are a donor that is by far the most SELFLESS act you can do. 
I'm so lucky to have had the chance to meet knew people and have them become aware of transplant and donating your organs. 

Here is to MANY more years of life, healthy life, making memories, making friends, and just being happy.

Happy Halloween.

Happy soon to be Thanksgiving! 

Most of all Happy 60 days until CHRISTMAS!!!!! (My favorite holiday) :)

love you all.

Courtney

Do You Believe?

Hello my people!

Okay so this is such a random like post.

Ever since I received my transplant on 10.10.12 every year about this time I start smelling an intense aroma of smoke, cigarette smoke. I feel like someone is sitting in front of me and blowing the smoke in my face. It's one of the most puzzling things i've ever been through. It always seems to be around December - January and sometimes February. It all started December 13th and is still going on, it'll usually last a week then stop and start again. It drives me crazy. No one is smoking around me, near me, let alone in front of my face.

It makes me wonder, could it be a sign from my donor? Are the times that it happens specific dates reflecting my donor's birthday or something that's very important to her? But why would it be smoke? Smelling smoke when you have new lungs just doesn't add up in my opinion. I just wish I knew what it was. I know i'm not crazy, but then again when I tell people I smell smoke only in the winter months and then is goes away, one would think wow she's lost her damn mind. haha Honestly though, have you ever heard of such a thing?
Maybe it's her telling me to write to her family again? Either way I'm going to write them again, maybe one day they will finally want to know that their daughter is living on.

Do you believe that it's possible to get "signs" from the donor? I use to think people were a little looney when speaking about ghost's and what not, but now include me in the looney bin. haha of course I guess if you admit to being looney then you aren't really looney.......

Anyways I just had to say that because it makes me crazy trying to figure it all out, but then again maybe I'm not suppose to figure it out?

In other news......
It's almost Christmas & I couldn't be more excited than I am right now! Christmas is by FAR my favorite time of the year, next to my birthday of course. :)

Until next time. Probably around Christmas, I will update everyone again. Hopefully my smoking smell will go away.

Thanks for Giving!

  Thanksgiving

noun

1.

the act of giving thanks; grateful acknowledgment of benefits or favors, especially to God.

2.

an expression of thanks, especially to God.

3.

a public celebration in acknowledgment of divine favor or kindness.

4.

a day set apart for giving thanks to God.

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For Thanksgiving this year we had decided to post pone in until today (Saturday) because Aunt Sheila had to work Thanksgiving, which is fine with me because that means we will get to spend more time together during Christmas (which is obviously my favorite time of the year). In my opinion it doesn't matter which day you have Thanksgiving on, it only matters that you are able to spend time together with the ones that you love so dearly. Besides we wanted ALL of our family here, not just half of them. I missed my aunt like crazy. So I will act like a child and say I was so excited to see her & spend time with her!!
I was sad my dad & Javier didn't get to spend turkey day with us, but since dad was so sick I wasn't about getting sick lol

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Things I am Thankful for in 2014

First 

I would like to send out my thanks be to God, for if it were not for him giving me strength, the fight, and the will, I would probably not be here. 

Second 

I would like to give thanks to my donor who was in her mid twenties. I am please asking for prayer for her family to find some peace, love, and understanding somehow in this terrible time. I know the holidays are much worse. If she's anything like me she LOVES her family...I hope that I am somewhat living the dream that the donor parents wished. I know they would want her lungs to save someone life. I can only help but hope that I am worthy enough for them. But let me tell you I'm SOOOOO thankful you have no idea! My hope is one day when the time is right, my donor's family will write back. I know this must be hard on them, I can't even imagine, but I hope that know that their daughters life continues through me.

Third

This person has been with me for an entire 25 years. When I was in the hospital, she was sleeping in a bed or chair right next to me and always catered to me for whatever I needed or wanted. For that I could never be so thankful that she is my mom! I wouldn't want anyone else trying to take care of me. Of course no offense to my bro Trevor! :) My mom is my rock, my angel, my person, she is one half of the person who granted me life here on this earth. The only award I can give you is my life. I wish I could give you more but physically I can't. I love you for every second every hour every day I wake up. I'm still alive because you always fought for me, no matter what it took, you would never give up on me. 

I love you mom,

you are the bread to my peanut butter

you're the sweet to my tea. 

I think you overall get the idea. :)

Fourth

I'm so thankful for my family. They are the most loving people I know. They give me strength when I am weak, hope when i'm hopeless, they have yet to ever let me down, or discourage me. Anything I choose to do in life, they are there to support my hopes and dreams. For that seems to be so uncommon these days and I am so thankful they are in my life. I wouldn't be who I am if it weren't for them.

Fourth: Part II

I'm very thankful for my friends. Wow. I don't even know what to say about them. I have never been so blessed and thankful that these people are in my life. I've been friends with them whether it has been 2 years or 25 years, i'm so grateful for each and everyone of them. 

Five

I'm so thankful for all of these pills. I would rather take 2348790403 pills than take breaking treatments all day but that is just my opinion. I have my morning, afternoon, bedtime meds. The enzymes I take before eating anything. It helps digest your food. This is EVERYDAY. Not including checking my blood sugar at least 4 times a day then poking yourself with a needle at least 4 times a day possible more. (Below are pictures of my medication in order)

So if you are still wondering why I'm thankful for these little money making type of pills, it's because without these pills, I wouldn't be here today. I'll take this over anything. God is Good! AMEN!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

xoxo-Courtney

I just like to smile, smiling is my favorite- ELF

Today as I had just ate breakfast I realized wow it's been 2 months since I've posted on here and a lot of things have happen since then so I will try and update you all to everything that I can at least remember :)

August

                 It was quite a busy month for me. I was asked by one of my mom's really good friends to house sit while they sailed the ocean blue, of course I said yes because not only are they the sweetest people you will ever come in contact with but they also have by far the sweetest most loving dogs ever. The entire 2 weeks I was there I hardly ever felt like the dogs were there, never heard a peep from them. EVER. If I did then I knew it was something serious, or the yard guys had come. :)
During that time when I was speaking to my grandma on the phone I told her I realized that I never ever want to live alone. It's boring, lonely, and just not fun. I'm to much of a people person. The Saturday before they came home, my back starting hurting and I was thinking, no no not again, come on back don't let me down now. Sure enough I couldn't take it, so I came home went to the ER got me some pain medicine and headed back home. I sent Trevor out to their house to stay a couple days since I obviously couldn't drive while "under the influence of narcotics" haha he ending up staying until Monday. They came home on Tuesday night and I'm sure the kiddo's (dogs) were so excited to see them.

After all that I decided that I needed to go to the dentist because I was told after I had my wisdom teeth removed to come back and see him so we could discuss what we wanted to do about my teeth. I scheduled an appointment and went on my way. While there Dr. Filbeck and I discussed the options I had for my ugly yellow, damaged front teeth. We talked for a good hour and decided the best way to do this is Porcelain Crowns instead of Veneers. I told him I could care less which teeth I got I just wanted white teeth. 

It was finally settled, Crowns it was. I scheduled an appointment to start the process the second week in September. I was soooo excited. I thought I would've been nervous but nope, the excitement overpowered the nervousness. :) 

August 22nd

An extremely hot Friday was the day of my mom's summer work party. It happens every year and I absolutely LOVE it! This year the company had it at the Dallas Zoo, we had the Zoo to ourselves all 200 of us give or take on the number. It was so hot yet so much fun, we saw Lions, Tigers, and no bears! haha we were at the zoo from 5pm up until bout 9 or 10pm. Needless to say when we got home I was so tired, hot, nasty gross that I immediately headed to take a cool shower.
The next night I was watching the news and they had "breaking news" pop up, they said out of the Dallas Zoo, the Lioness attacked the zoo keeper. I'm like oh great, luckily it wasn't when we were there. haha

This is our holy heck it's hot but hello lil Giraffe look.

Weekend of August 30th. 

Oh lordy was that intense. My mom and I were out shopping mid day for Kristin's birthday the following week when the one and only E-Wizzle (aka Erin my nurse) called. I instantly thought oh no something is wrong, she doesn't ever call me. I answer and she's like hey are you coming to Katie's (my other nurse) bridal shower, I said um yeah? She goes well it's at 2 (i think) and Katie isn't even here yet, I said omgsh I thought it was at 3! So we left the store asap and headed to her shower in Dallas. Of course we were late so we walked in while everyone was eating (AWKWARD) I ended up sitting next to her mom. Katie has some of the nicest, most sweetest family and friends I've met. I was so honored that she invited me. She of course looked gorgeous as always!

After we left the shower we then had to go to Blake's birthday party. He was turning the big 8! I didn't stay long because I wasn't feeling so good, so I just did a kinda drop off the present and run thing. 

Sunday: 

Kristin decided that she was going to have her family birthday shindig today since her real birthday fell on a weekday, not only that school had started and she didn't really have time to have a "party". We all had kind of a late lunch early dinner at JeJe's and it was delicious as well as fun. I love love spending time with my best friend. There is no words in this world that could describing the love & friendship she has given me for 25 years. I love her so much, she's always there for me no matter what the circumstances are, even though she is so busy with her life, marriage, and career she will drop anything if I need her. :)

I got her this 3ft. wine glass & filled it with 25 gifts that she can actually use. lol

*September*

At last we have reached the month of September, the month in which the heat finally starts simmering down, the trees start changing colors, and the cool weather approaches. My favorite time is fall & winter. :)

Needless to say this was quite a long month, only because it was my mom's Sabbatical and the first day of it we did so much that we thought okay now what? haha 

Dentist Time

September 8th was the first of 3 appointments to start my crown process! I had to be at the dentist by 8 am that morning, and if you know me then you are fully aware at how I am NOT a morning person. However I sucked it up and went because I was excited! I was there for a 2-3 hours. He numbed my entire face, drilled all my teeth down, then put on my temporary crowns. It was one of the weirdest feelings ever, not only that my teeth weren't YELLOW. I was so happy I didn't even know what to think, he told me that the permanents will be more white, straighter and smoother. In my mind I thought he was crazy, how could they look any better than they do now? It's impossible, he doesn't know what he's talking about. haha well sure enough he completely knew what he was talking about because when I went to my second appointment on the 15th, he applied my permanents and I could have cried but I didn't. They looked amazing, for the first time in my life I had white teeth, yes they are fake but I sure as heck don't care as long as they weren't dentures. ;-) I haven't been able to stop smiling since. They always say smiling shows confidence but in my case who would want to smile with teeth that were so damaged. I mean yes I had a good excuse because it was from all the malnutrition, being a mouth breather, but you can't tell every person you run into "hey my teeth are yellow because blah blah blah" so the entire time I was being judged once again. I don't care what you say it was true, there are a lot of judgmental people in this world and no matter what you say, you do care what others think, it's in your nature. 

I feel like now that my teeth are all pretty & white I can do anything I want to in life. 

 The picture above is my temporary crowns.

......this are my permanents, can you say gorgeous teeth?

From September 17th through the 21st my mom & I traveled to Atlanta, Georgia to see Garth Brooks in concert. I surprised her with the tickets a few weeks prior, so we barely had time enough to pack and fly or at least that's how I felt. I'm a very organized packer in the fact that I make a list a month in advance so I don't forget anything, and this time I felted so rushed haha. When we arrived little did we know that the hotel we stayed at (which was very nice, clean, great ratings) was in the "hood" of ATL. Heck we didn't know, but I will say it was quite an experience. Even though the hotel area was sketching we only slept there, most of our time we spent driving everywhere! Oh and FYI traffic in the ATL goes on 24/7 there are no break periods, 2am traffic, 2pm traffic, every hour TRAFFIC!! It took 20 minutes just to go 5 miles, I've never been good at math but I sure as heck know that don't add up! 

Most Scary Moment: 

I called the hotel lobby asking who had the best pizza, he said best pizza, I said no I mean like where can I order it, he said nah it's called Best Pizza it's just down the road (yeah 15min) okay cool thanks! I called them, the lady answer watchu want? I said do y'all have pineapple pizza? The lady said ummm we gots pizza dat you can put da pineapple on.... (okay rude, I was VERY nice to her though) I said yeah i'm sorry that's what I meant, can I get a small pizza. mmmhmm dat it? I said yes ma'am. aight be ready in 5. Lol okay cool no problem. We arrived at the pizza place only to realize it was in a worse part of town, the barbershop next door was still "open" at 1am and all the boys were outside just a chatting (or so I hope). Mom was about to have a heart attack, I went in and the lady looked at me like what in the heck are you doing here? I handed the lady my $5 through a hole (since it was all incased with bullet proof glass) then she handed my pizza through another hole in which only the pizza box could fit...... haha all in all it was good pizza, would I get it again um no thank you. 

While in Atlanta we went to the Georgia Aquarium which was pretty awesome, if I say so myself. Then Saturday we went to the Coca Cola Bottling Factory, it was so cool! They give you a glass bottle of coke when you leave, which they should for the price we paid to get in there! (I drank it yesterday, best coke ever! Not super sweet and acidy like can coke)

The best part of the trip was in fact the concert. We had to walk like 3 miles and there were 50 million people everywhere in what they call Midtown Atlanta. The reasoning behind millions of people was well, Garth Brooks was doing back to back concerts that night, 6:30pm & 10:30pm, they had the College Football game going on, the BET awards, and well as Midtown Music Festival, so whoever planned that was stupid! So, that Saturday the concert ended about 9 or 9:30 (which in my opinion isn't enough spacing) we stopped to get something to drink, the waited in traffic for a good 2 hours (no joke) then got back to the hotel, packed all our stuff up, then basically ate all the food in the hotel that we had bought, and by the time we got to lay down it was about 12:30 and we had to get up at 3:30am to take the rental car back & all that jazz. I got about an hour of sleep maybe. I was exhausted and ready for my OWN bed!

These are just a few pictures from our trip:

That's all for now, I know I say this every time but I'm going to TRY and keep up with this. If I don't then well I don't know. lol 

Here's to October, a month of milestones, life changing events, cooler weather, and closer to Christmas! :)

Become a Donor

bro.

Here I am, it's been a little while since I've uploaded a post. I apologize. I've been continuing to do good in school and what not. It's just been plain hectic around the White house. Anyways back to my purpose of this post.

Today this post is dedicated to my one and only brother. Today July 29, 1992 I was in the waiting room waiting for my little brother to show up. I was so excited I couldn't contain myself. Well after a terrible delivery my mom finally gave me my little brother. I had the "I'm a BIG sister" cliche shirt on, of course. :)

There are many times in our life that we fought. Argued till the sun went down, hit each other. Kicked on another, basically the typical brother and sister situation. As I look back in life, I felt so sorry for him. I would miss school all the time and so he thought well if sister misses school why can't I? So it was such a hassle for my parents and grandparents to get him to school. One reason it was so hard was because he was the size of an adult. But man I loved him.

Now here we are, on his birthday going to celebrate tonight. If you know my brother at all, he doesn't want any attention, he doesn't want anyone to even acknowledge that it's his birthday and I still to this day can't quite figure it out. He would rather sit at home play on his computer than even go to dinner. However what he doesn't know is that tonight the whole family is going out to eat including a few of my friends which he really loves. I'm very very nervous about this. I really hope he just has a good time. That's all I want from him.

He is such an amazing man, he will make one girl very happy one day. He's the most caring, sweetest, hard headed, argumentative, loving person and he will do anything for anybody. He is such a strong man, for many years (probably at least 5) he took care of me while mom worked. I don't know what I would've done without him. He always catered to my every want and need. He would make sure I ate, took my medicine, and he would sleep with me so I wouldn't feel like I was alone. He stayed up most all of the nights just to watch me while mom would sleep. Then they would trade off. He would have to pick me up to take me to the bathroom because I couldn't breathe, let alone walk 2 steps. He would push me in my wheelchair, make sure my oxygen was on and all that.

Even though sometimes I want to slap him, or yell at him I know that we will soon get over it and life will move on. So with all that being said I am so extremely grateful for the man he has become. Not many siblings that age would've put their life on hold literally just to take care of their sister. Oh how I love that red headed dude. Anyways I just wanted to give y'all an idea of how he's such an amazing man.
Today is your day Trevor, I love you with all of my heart. You will NEVER know how much you mean to me by helping me fight for my life and making sure I never ever gave up. It was priceless memories that I wouldn't trade for the world.

iloveyou.

Happy Birthday Trevor Joseph!

Love you always,
Court